A woman today I speak with told me her children were being pains and she hoped they got children just like them. I replied, "ahh, the mother's blessing." And then I cried.
My mother used to say to me, "I don't want you to have a daughter like you - I want you to have TWO like you."
I have miscarried my children thanks to Lupus. The meds I take have some hefty blackbox warnings and my health is such I will probably never have biological children. I am unsure if I will ever adopt my own unless my health improves. And though I get beautiful offers of marriage for healthcare purposes, they are from amazing honorable men - none of whom want a FAMILY with me- they are simply falling on their sword to take care of a woman with health needs. They don't see me as a viable romantic interest. I think I would be an ok mother. And I have always longed for the stability of a family - the picket fence kind - even if others scoff at it. I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED IT.
I would LOVE to be blessed with my own. I've turned out ok. I'll take TWO OF ME.
Please god?
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You'd be a great mom, Melissa. Two of you would be a couple of great kids.
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